One of the hardest things I had to learn in recovery was how to sit with my feelings instead of trying to escape them.
For a long time, I didn’t even realize that was what I was doing. I just knew that whenever I felt uncomfortable, I wanted it gone as fast as possible.
What It Was Like Before
Before I came into recovery, I didn’t sit with anything. If I felt stressed, I drank. If I felt angry, I drank. If I felt lonely, I drank.
It didn’t matter what the feeling was—the answer was always the same. I didn’t know how to deal with life without escaping it.
Over time, I stopped trusting myself. I didn’t believe I could handle even small problems without trying to get out of how I felt.
I wasn’t afraid of life—I was afraid of how I felt inside of it.
What Changed When I Stopped Drinking
When I stopped drinking, all those feelings didn’t disappear—they showed up stronger.
That was something I wasn’t prepared for. I thought stopping would make everything easier, but at first it made things feel more real.
I had to sit with things I used to run from. That was uncomfortable, and sometimes it felt overwhelming.
Learning to Sit Instead of Run
At first, I didn’t do this well. My mind still wanted quick relief. I would get restless, irritated, and uncomfortable.
But little by little, I started to learn that feelings don’t last forever. Even the ones that felt intense would pass if I didn’t react to them.
That was new for me. I had never given myself the chance to see that before.
What Helped Me Through It
What helped me most was keeping things simple. I didn’t try to fix everything at once.
Sometimes I would just slow down and take things one hour at a time. Other times I would reach out or go somewhere I knew I wouldn’t feel alone.
I also started to remind myself that I didn’t need to react to every thought or feeling that came up.
What I Learned
I learned that feelings are not permanent. They change. They pass. They don’t control me unless I let them.
I also learned that I am capable of getting through things I used to think I couldn’t handle.
That gave me confidence—not all at once, but over time.
Where I Am Today
Today, I still have hard days. I still feel things I don’t always like. But I don’t run from them the way I used to.
I know now that I can sit with life as it is, and that has made a big difference.
If You’re Struggling With This
If you’re in a place where your feelings feel overwhelming, I understand that. I’ve been there.
You don’t have to handle everything perfectly. Sometimes just staying where you are and not reacting is enough.
In my experience, those moments pass—and each time you get through one, it gets a little easier.
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What has helped you sit with difficult feelings instead of escaping them?
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